It's Not Just HER

Hey Daisies~ This incident actually happened yesterday and it was really a pain in the ass, so I had to let it out.

Some people don't realise what they say annoy people, and when someone else does the same thing, you find it annoying.

Basically you are just annoying yourself unwillingly.


So I have a senior who is super awesome, funny, bossy in a really good way, and she is super smart. But the thing is that she has a bad past and a scary background. She deals with family problems everyday, she goes through 'N' Level stress, insecurity as well as having a crush on someone who doesn't like her back.

And she went to cut her hair yesterday and posted on our group chat, asking 'How do I look with short hair?"

Everyone knows when you ask such questions, you will get feedbacks, comments and replies from different people. Everyone in the group including me replied back with compliments and all, no negative comments, nothing negative at all.

And she kept replying, "No! I am so ugly!" etc etc

Now, many would just say "Omg, she is such an attention seeker!"

Even if she is, words still hurt. But the problem now is that she registered in her head is that 'She is ugly'. Its a FACT TO HER. And thus she would neglect our compliments. What I would like to say to this senior of mine is that why are you asking us on our opinion when you already know you are ugly?

Plus we ALL have different opinions. To you, you may look fat and ugly, but to others you look skinny and beautiful.

Now here comes the thing that I want to say badly, when she started to say that she is ugly and all, the rest were really angry and started to scold her for being so negative when THEY themselves are always like that.

They later come and tell me how annoying she is being, how she should accept their compliments and not neglect them. And I'm like here thinking to myself, "That is what all of you have f-ing been doing."

So think twice before you say anything bad behind someone else's back, because you may just be backstabbing yourself too.

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That concludes my rant, there is more to this, 

but I would be cursing and all throughout the whole time so, 

better to be safe than sorry.

Hope some may relate to my problem today and 

stay tune for more relate-able  rants!

2nd Semester

After Ever After

Hey Daisies! Well the second semester just started and the first week of it just ended!
The week just passed by like that!
But these few days, I felt really lonely in terms of I had no one to talk to, no one to approach.

My boyfriend was really busy with his CCA, I had some conflicts with my friends, just, urgh, lonesome.


These days I feel really left out, my friends have like other friends to attend to, I won't touch on my boyfriend since he was really tired and busy, nothing bad about that, but being left out by my friends is something kinda saddening, well to me.

But then again, I like the feeling of being alone. I would rather be alone than be betrayed by people, something I learnt over the years as a teenager. I never liked to joke around, which spark off most friendship problems because my friends like to joke around with me and all.

I just feel, like I'm not suitable for my friends in a way.

They love to joke around, I don't.
They are not really sensitive, I am super sensitive.
They are fun to be with, I'm not

Like I would usually keep quiet, since I don't want my words to hurt anyone. But like what I told my close friends before, I would be a 'mute' if I have to, if my words don't make any sense or hurt someone. I don't know, I just feel like whatever I say would hurt someone very badly.

Even if I go through a battle in my head and heart, I still smile so nobody would worry, so nobody would know I am going through a depressing life. But nobody understands how I feel about things, which is kinda annoying cause they would say I am usually a really cheerful girl, but sorry guise, I'm not all that happy :)

But for now, I would like my second semester to be peaceful and conflict-free.